A Red Light, Lost Keys and a Little girl

I ran a red light going to buy alcohol the other morning.  8.15am.  $396 fine.

I lost the little sensor bit in my key and my van is now idle until the replacement is sent.  $389.

I found out my pregnant wife is carrying our third daughter.

Also, I have been so sick from drinking six bottles of wine every three days that I was curled in bed sweating, thinking that the world was about to end.

In the mail, a small package arrived.  (On this blog I get plenty of emails and spam from all over the place - months ago I replied to what I half guessed was spam to an offer for a free review copy of Undrunk - A Skeptics Guide to AA).  A book about being a recovering alcoholic. 

I took it as a sign, along with the other signs my life was crumbling.

So I reset my sobriety counter and now I am on day four.

This time, I am open to AA and even more humble that I cannot drink alcohol.  All my friends and family still think I have been sober even whilst I sneaked wine for the past eight months.

So, on the outside nothing has changed.

But on the inside I am open and humble to continue the journey and this time I will be sharing my growth with AA.

Close to Losing Your Mind...

It is such a brief release to drink and think no one knows. 

Begging and lying - all over again.



I am sort of doing it these days and it is slowly killing me.

Sort of is a pathetic understatement.

Back on the antabuse ASAP.

Now, we find out the sex of our thrid child - on Tuesday.  Here's hoping.

Pregnant

This morning my wife told me she is pregnant. Phew. We had just had sex and in the sticky afterglow she sort of let it drop and said something after she asked for the tissues. * Well there you go. Two girls already. Let's see what happens - it's a bit early in biological terms for anything on Facebook or whatever, but for all my alcoholic friends perhaps we can bend the rules a bit. * ;?More soon. Keeping sober and working bloody hard.